Tuesday, September 27, 2011

{yikes! taking a leap of faith}

Friends. I need to share something with you.
Over the life of this little blog I’ve gone back and forth about the topics of my posts.
DIYs. Recipes. Pictures.
but very seldom do I share about my faith.
I’m not sure why that has been. It just has.

It is odd. My faith is part of my every day life
yet this space doesn't reflect that. 
I've been reflecting on that lately
and I've come to the conclusion that I had to do something about it.

It all started one day when I read Proverbs 31.
I closed my Bible and went on with my day.
Days, maybe weeks, later it came back to me.
It hit me.
The words kept popping into my head.

A wife of noble character who can find? 
She is worth far more than rubies. 
Her husband has full confidence in her    and lacks nothing of value. 
She brings him good, not harm,
all the days of her life.
She selects wool and flax and works with eager hands. 
She is like the merchant ships,
bringing her food from afar. 
She gets up while it is still night;
she provides food for her family
and portions for her female servants. 
She considers a field and buys it;
out of her earnings she plants a vineyard. 
She sets about her work vigorously;
her arms are strong for her tasks. 
She sees that her trading is profitable,
and her lamp does not go out at night. 
In her hand she holds the distaff
and grasps the spindle with her fingers. 
She opens her arms to the poor
and extends her hands to the needy. 
When it snows, she has no fear for her household;
for all of them are clothed in scarlet. 
She makes coverings for her bed;
she is clothed in fine linen and purple. 
Her husband is respected at the city gate,
where he takes his seat among the elders of the land. 
She makes linen garments and sells them,
and supplies the merchants with sashes. 
She is clothed with strength and dignity;
she can laugh at the days to come. 
She speaks with wisdom, 
and faithful instruction is on her tongue. 
She watches over the affairs of her household 
and does not eat the bread of idleness. 
Her children arise and call her blessed;
her husband also, and he praises her: 
“Many women do noble things, but you surpass them all.” 
Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised. 
Honor her for all that her hands have done,
and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.

(Ok I didn’t remember all of the words. But some.)

I realized it summarized what I aim to do each day.

Being a stay-at-home mom and working (from home) part of the time
has irrefutable demands.
I used to think God would only speak to me in my alone, quiet prayer time.
He’s proved me wrong. Way wrong.
Although alone, quiet prayer time is always my goal,
God knows it is not always possible.
Reflecting on God throughout my day has lead me to find Him elsewhere.
I’ve found Him in my daily chores.
I’ve found Him in washing dishes, cooking dinner, changing diapers, writing articles, doing laundry.

I’ve come to realize that I’m doing exactly what He wants me to do.
Mundane as it may be.

This makes me afraid because sharing is a big time leap of faith for me.
Literally and figuratively speaking.
I don’t particularly like talking about what God says to me.
I’m a private person in that matter I suppose.
I’m worry about how people will perceive me when they know what I believe.

Yet faith, I think, is about getting out of your comfort zone.
It is about being vulnerable when you don’t want to be.

… and I don’t want to be.

But here I go. Taking a step into the unknown.

From now on, you may see more posts like this
telling you about what God is doing in my life.
Not always. They'll pop up here and there.
For the most part, the topics will remain unchanged.
Lovingly Thrown Together, though, will begin to more accurately represent 
the entirety of my life.

Thanks for following along!

PS: Longest post ever!


Heather @ we.are.the.holdens said...

Esther, first, i love your blog design..and your signature! Second, this is exciting. i found myself getting more excited for you as i read your post. Love how your making yourself "uncomfortable"...that's always good_ stretching. :)

Taryn said...

Nice post Esther :) I love that passage, especially "Her children arise and call her blessed;
her husband also, and he praises her". What a great goal in life.

Katie @ minivan diva said...

I've come to that realization too, that God is there in mundane and that we can meet Him there and find joy in the fact that He has us there for a purpose.

Angie said...

I've been thinking the same thing! My blog reflects what I DO, but not at all who I AM. Which is what God made me to be <3

I follwed your link on Call me Blessed, and could completely relate. Thanks so much for sharing, I will keep watching :) I'm a new follower!

Anonymous said...

First of all...I love your name. Esther is my favorite woman in the Bible. Such a strong story.

I loved this post, and it was such an encouragement to me.

Stopped by from Call Me Blessed

Hannah said...

It is so much easier to relay the funny anecdotes of mommyhood than the deeper, personal side. I have the same feeling...I don't feel like I hide it on my blog, I just don't rave on it. I started a new page on my spiritual roots a few months ago, just so people can know when they look around.

I loved the post!

Heather @ Finding Beauty in the Ordinary said...

You go girl!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Eunora said...

Good job! When He is your ALL, it's hard not to keep HIm to yourself. ;) Share on!

I'm Ashley. said...

Thanks for sharing! This post was wonderful. Prov 31 has been on my heart so much lately and I love hearing about how it is speaking to other women as well in similar ways. PS your blog is beautiful!!

Anonymous said...

Love your blog style! It's so cute. I just came across from Jami and I have to say this is fabulous...can't wait to see how God uses your blog :)

Mrs. Pancakes said...

this is actually why i started my blog to be that kind of wife to my then-fiance....i aspire to be the Prov. 31 woman!


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