Monday, January 2, 2012

{ fresh start }

I have had the worst case of writers block in the history of writers block. 
No joke. 
I have been so incredibly uninspired during the last few weeks,
something I find so depressing seeing as we are in the most joyful seasons of the year.
Our savior has been born. A little baby has come to redeem us. A miracle happened among us.  
Yet, my mind has been filled with other preoccupations
and at the same time my hands have been busy getting ready 
for family parties, work parties, friend parties. 

I feel like the holidays whisked by like a tornado and left my mind searching for a place to stand.


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Looking back now, I realize that it has truly been difficult to soak in the joy of the season.

At a family Christmas party yesterday afternoon,
I  sat down after what seemed like two whole weeks of running. sprinting. non-stop.
I sat on my mother-in-law's couch and dozed off for a few seconds.
I observed my husband's aunt and uncles and cousins 
and brothers and sisters and nieces and nephews
zooming all around me.
It was like one of those pictures taken of a still object while everything else around it keeps moving.
For some reason I couldn't make myself get up and be a part of it all. 
Now this only happened for a few minutes
but it was such a real representation of what the holidays did to me.

They knocked me down. They knocked me down real good.


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While I meditated on that, 
I realized that the new year is finally here and I really have to get it together
I have some lifestyle changes that I want to make.
Not resolutions because those never last.

It's time for me to put all the stresses of 2011 behind me and start all over.
Isn't that why we love New Year so much?
When you think about it January 1st is just another day... 
it just happens to be the first on the calendar.
But at least for me, that day is so monumental because it's like a blank canvas.

It's such a hopeful time, the first few days of January.
Personally I am inundated with hope that this year will be different. 
This year, all our goals and dreams will come to be. 
That may be naive. 
That may be ignorant.but I think that without hope, there is really no reason to even live. 
That's what I think and I'm sticking to it.

I love being able to look forward towards the next year and making plans.
I especially look forward to jotting things into my calendar. 
That's what I am doing right now. 
Flipping through the pages of my calendar, making lists, reading up on things.
Putting everything behind me. 
I'm hopeful that this year will be the year that I can do it all... 
Now THAT is hope right here. 



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PS: What says "fresh start" better than the color white? 
All of the images were found in this Pinterest gal.

1 comment:

Michelle Tomo said...

Just the words, "Starting fresh" seem like a soothing wave. For me, it was the start of each school quarter or year, New Year's, and Lent. Purging is hard, but the peace that is emitted from it is worth all the effort!

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