{ thankful thursday : a heartbeat }

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i had my 12 week appointment today.

i had no real reason to worry 

but i was mentally preparing myself to not hear a heartbeat

in hindsight, i realize i need to reel in my thoughts 

and stop my brain from going crazy.

i laid on the weirdly tall doctor office bed and pulled my shirt up 

much to jacob's delight since he saw it as a cue to announce that there is a baby in there.

the midwife put that little doppler on my belly 

and it did its job...

it found a loudly beating heart!

i'm not one of those women who tears up at the sound of the baby's heart

and today wasn't any different.

still... i couldn't help but lay there and find myself in pure awe

that a little person (a person!) is in there.

measuring merely two inches 

but with a tiny tiny tiny beating heart 

and that amazes me.

simultaneously seeing my baby out here in the world 

running around and getting into trouble

and hearing a heartbeat coming from my insides

makes it all so real.

soon the tiny baby with a beating heart inside of me will be out here too.

ps: i know the print i posted doesn't really make sense
but i love the quote and i found it appropriate.

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