Monday, July 16, 2012

{ the beginning of a touchy subject }

I’m pretty nervous to share about this topic so I’ll just start with a warning of sorts.
I want to clear the air before I start writing about natural childbirth  (There I said it. Gasp)

When I found out I was pregnant with this baby girl 
I knew natural childbirth would eventually be something
that I would want to write about
 because it’s something that is important to me.
... and this is my blog, after all.

It makes me nervous to talk about it because
people get so defensive when the topic comes up,
Like, “what’s wrong with the epidural?!”
It’s just not what I wanted to do with Jacob 
and it’s not what I want to do with this baby.
That’s it.

With my first pregnancy I wanted to go through labor.
I wanted to feel it all.
I wanted to really experience what it was like for women through the ages.
I knew it was possible. So I prepared for it and did it.

Just so you know, I don’t think I’m any sort of martyr.

I think people think natural birth enthusiasts judge them for choosing to have an epidural.
I’m not going to speak for anyone but I personally don’t judge anyone.

I know how physically painful and mentally trying childbirth is
… that’s why I don’t pass judgement.
It was a tough experience. It messed with my head. I became a vastly different human being.
When I was in the midst of it, I wanted the epidural. In fact I wanted a c-section.
I just wanted that baby o u t.

Phil knew that I wanted to "go drug free" and he supported me.
He too jumped on the band wagon and we prepared for it together.
He was the only reason I was actually able to go drug-free.
I always say that he was so good that I should rent him out as a labor coach.
We’d make really good money. He was that good of a coach.

So that’s it.
Just some things I wanted to say before
I start writing about preparing for baby #2’s birth.

Whenever the subject comes up with friends or family I always say the same thing,
No matter what a woman does during childbirth, we all get a baby at the end.
And that end is just the beginning.
Then we’re all mothers and life gets really interesting.
Childbirth is just a day (or three in my personal experience)
It’s just an instant in the journey that is motherhood.

Why am I posting about this then??
I write about my life. On this blog I write about the joys and sorrows
of being a mother, wife, crafter, cook, cleaning lady, etc.
The real stuff of my everyday.
Well, this is part of my life too.

images of jacob matthew, five-days-old, courtesy of paul francis photography


TicoTina said...

love it, Esther - I didn't want a natural birth enough to do it, but I definitely think it's awesome when moms do =)

Kari Beth said...

Love this post. I went the hospital/epidural route w/ my daughter and the whole time something just didn't feel right. With my next baby I am already planning and mentally preparing to go the natural route. Hopefully at home. said...

Amen, love you and your non-judgement, honest insight, it is a beautiful thing I so appreciate. So happy you have chosen to do what is best for you and your family. xoxox Michelle

Southern Wifey said...

new follower here! was reading through some posts to see if I liked what you blogged about and how you wrote, and I have to say I absolutely love this post. I personally didnt have a natural childbirth (ended up with an epidural) with my precious baby boy this past June. But I really did want to try natural birth, and Im hoping for baby #2 I can do just that. Cant wait to hear how birth goes for your little one on the way.

the sweet life of a southern wife


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