Thursday, December 6, 2012

{ transition // a good girl }

the transition from one to two children hasn't been easy.

jake has been a handful.
my former great sleeper, phenomenal napper, and fabulous eater
has rebelled against us.
was it the terrible timing of the storm and being out of our home for two weeks 
or was it adding a sister to the mix?
i'll never know. it all happened at once.
i've come to just accept that it all happened the way it happened for a reason
because if i dwell too much on it all i get kind of upset with God.

i've yelled a lot since we came home with the baby. cried some too.
i've struggled to keep on top of laundry
(well, i've kinda been waiting for phil to do it, honestly)
i feel like the house is never clean
i've cooked a few meals since siena was born 
but i've mostly been depending on my friends' to feed my family

on a regular basis, i feel inadequate in my parenting and homemaking skills.

don't worry, i talk myself into a better mental state all the time 
by reminding myself that i have a not-even-one-month-old.
i forget about that sometimes.

in the midst of all the chaos that goes on around me each day,
i can't help but stare at my little girl
yes, in awe of her awesomeness and beauty,
but also in such gratefulness for her chill demeanor.

i mean the girl is g o o d.

she eats. sleeps. and even poops on schedule (for the most part).
and if you know me, you know i love me a good, predictable schedule.

when she fuses, she's either hungry, tired, cold, or needs to be burped.
she doesn't waste a good cry for the sake of crying. no ma'am.

she smiles and melts my heart.
she has these big ol' eyes that stare back at me
in that "hi mom" kinda way that makes me want to explode.

i'm not saying that i would call her "bad" if she wasn't this way
but she's just good, there is no other way to describe it.

and i'm not saying that jake is bad either.
i'm saying he needs a little more love these days and it's been hard for me to meet his needs
therefore making every day life for him a little tougher than he's used to.

but i'm thankful.
siena grace, with her sweet, delicate, tranquil spirit,
 is giving me a chance to love her brother through this transition
and for that i will be forever grateful
to her
and to God
for giving me the perfect baby for me and for our family at this time.

a punk, a pumpkin and a peanut

here and here


Julie Rogers said...

Oh my word---it does get easier, but those first weeks are tough...hang in there! And before you know it, you will become a pro at handling two (trust me, I am pregnant with my third so I must have survived!).


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Southern Wifey said...

beautiful post. i love that you shared your honest feelings. parenting is hard, whether you have 1 kid or 5 kids, its very trying on any mother. and just think, soon enough things will fall into a "crazy but somewhat normal" place and then you get to look back and laugh at the hard times that made you become a great mother. :)
the sweet life of a southern wife

Stone Cottage Adventures said...

What gorgeous children! Sending prayers and a hug your way! ((Esther)) -Marci @ Stone Cottage Adventures


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